Examining Self - S.A.S.

 My identity exists in three interconnected parts: who God created me to be, who my friends and family perceive me to be, and who I understand myself to be. The “self” presented to others changes daily and situationally among these three personas. The qualities and roles present in each area of my life constantly overlap and demonstrate my personal aim to be a follower of God who shares His peace with others, a loyal, steady, and cheerful presence among family and friends and a proud supporter of myself. 

Self-reflection has allowed for a better understanding of these overlapping identities, as well as the roles, values, strengths, weaknesses, and flaws within each aspect. The visual representation of personal identity is presented through three photographic self-portraits mounted on a triptych of canvases. Within the combination of portraits, compositions of flowers and animals act as symbolic extensions of my identity. Each portrait corresponds to a distinct aspect of the self, with meanings, both positive and negative, revealed in the surrounding imagery. 

The blue button-up work shirt represents my self-perceived identity as an committed artist, disciplined and willing to sacrifice time and connections in pursuit of creating. Flowers found in my mother’s garden, sunflowers and climbing roses, reflect joy, creative spirit, loyalty and growth toward the light. However, the thorns and intertwining vines of the climbing roses evoke feelings of being trapped or entangled. Monarchs and pipevine swallowtails, butterflies native to my hometown and personal history, represent the transformation of the soul that occurs when following Christ.

Cyanotype, or blueprint, offers a unique opportunity to create cohesion within the piece. The duality of blue mirrors that of the symbols contained within the triptych. Blue’s positive associations include spirituality, diligence, loyalty, and peace. Negatively, it can characterize isolation, emotional distance, and sadness. Much like my identity, collage allows elements to overlap and mingle with one another.